Kontan.

Just hanging on

After reading the last post of Tense I am rather frustrated.  Not because of what Tense said, but because it is a reminder that I too need to achieve a healthier lifestyle and was on the right track. I was doing so well…and then life got in the way.

I am really struggling to find time for exercise…shoot, I’m finding it difficult to get sufficient rest. I’m so far behind in my teacher responsibilities. Grades were due and I didn’t make the deadline. Admin is not concerned. They understand that family comes first, but that doesn’t change that I’m now playing catch up. It doesn’t change that my students need to know their average. It doesn’t change that my family needs me too.

I’m feeling a little lost these days. When did “me” disappear? I am a wife. I am a mother. I am a teacher. I am a team sponsor. Sometimes it feels that I am a teacher over everything else. Why do I let it consume me? How do I prevent it from consuming me? Where is the balance? Where did “me” go? When am I me? I know that all of my roles are part of me, but I get so lost in the responsibility that I don’t even recognize the joy of them anymore. I need to reclaim the joy.  I need to reclaim me.

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