Kontan Jou

In just a little while I will be making a very important call. I must discuss with my administrator the opportunity that is before me. There are positives. There are negatives. I don’t know which list is greater because the items on the list are weighted. I feel bad for thinking about leaving mid-year. I didn’t set out to pursue a job that would require it. Everything has snowballed in one week. When I clicked that I was interested in the position I thought it was for next school year, not January. If I accept it is more money, and it opens the door for other opportunities in the fall. I feel shallow for the amount of weight the more money positive has, but it is reality. I feel a sense of betrayal toward my current admin and students. It isn’t that I dislike the school or my students. In fact, I really like the fact that there are virtually no discipline problems and I am relatively free to do what I want. Follow state curriculum and get results, how you do that is up to you. The schedule, set up much like a college class schedule, is awesome. The new position will require me to be there at 6:45 AM. If you review my archive you will see that I am a night person. I’m barely out of bed at 6:45 AM. I can’t become a morning person, but I can force myself to function on a different schedule. I dread this call. I don’t want to burn a bridge or create conflict. I feel like I am about to open a whole can of conflict. Unfortunately, I also need admins recommendation.

Praying all goes smoothly…