A few of my favorite things…sanity savers if you will
It is time to regain my sanity. Funny how I always turn here to do that. I think I’ve been at this spot on the web since 2005, but have posts from Blogger that date to 2003…or ’04??? The truly sad part is that I don’t remember. I read my first post the other day. I knew the origins of the name but had forgotten that all my themes focused on butterflies. I know I had a serious thing for butterflies, but had totally forgotten why.
A workshop. The monarch butterfly was discussed. It’s diligence and beauty really made an impact on my thoughts. Making the list of favorite things, butterflies. (Moths too, there are really pretty moths.) Butterflies have beauty, grace, perseverance. It is there preservation of life that attracted me to them.
I’ve made no secret that I love the outdoors. I love to just be. No agenda. No noise. Just nature. It is very soothing. Dauphin Island, AL is at the top of my list for beach vacay. Sitting on the beach, sand in my toes…just watching waves come in. No expansive commercial development. Just locals, snowbirds, and a few vacationers. (I also like visiting the fort. Have to get the history tours in where I can.)
Historical places. There is something special about a place with historical significance. Knowing that life was there before. Something major happened. Places have a story to tell, sometimes it is clearly documented and others you just need to observe. A few of my favorites: Natchez Trace, Savannah, DC, and Charleston. I love this place. Standing on the pier looking out over the water. Old city with history and diversity. It is a place to explore. I remember being fascinated by the buildings, old doors, windows, and streets.
Hiking. Whether out using high priced satellites to find tupperware in the woods (geocaching) or just out to be quiet, I love it. If you are quiet enough, and still enough, you can see/hear so much. One of the most soothing and relaxing things to do is find a large log by the water. Climb up, sit back and just listen. Your mind will clear. Your body will relax. For a moment, the world will seem perfect.
How’s that for an it’s been a while ramble? Random. Sanity seeking. Without real purpose. Next time…pictures. You can never lose with images.
big sigh
I can’t even bring myself to blog about it. What do you say? Taking life one step at a time. Each day is about a choice. I choose to do what has to be done and smile when possible.
The power of 3…
Three preps. Powerful. It’s kicking my rear and keeping me down. The grading just stacks up. Planning consists of notes scribbled in my agenda. Fortunately, I can teach one subject without much thought. Everything is planned and in a binder. My goal is to complete the binder by the end of the semester, modifying lessons to fit the current class. It works well. The other two classes…not so much. One group won’t talk to me and the other won’t shut up. Actually, the other two won’t shut up. Fourth is SO loud. I almost made them cry today and they grew silent. Love the class, I really do. When I kept having to redirect and kept having to ask for their attention I just stood their silent. Several noticed and raised their hands so that everyone else would clue in. When they were quiet enough to hear I quietly said that they were slowly becoming one of the most disrespectful classes I have ever taught. *crickets* I feel a little bad about it, but they need to know that their talking is going too far. (I have to say, they are also the smartest honors class I have taught and most willing to work. When they work, they work well.)
My first observation was today. It was during my lowest and most difficult class. They were amazing. Of course, my problem child wasn’t there…that helped. I think it went well, but you never know. I’m comfortable with it, and that’s what counts.
On a down note, I have to have three observations this year. Licensure failed to do their job and submit my information for renewal. I have documentation from last March that says they would handle everything. I asked repeatedly if there was anything I needed to do or give them. All they could say is sorry if fell through the cracks. What?!?!?! This is my life we’re talking about here and that’s all you have to say? The individual responsible is taking care of it. It is time for me to follow up. Hoping for the best…
Just a step above
Although not at the lowest of lows that I felt last week, I am merely a step above ready to walk out the door. I look at my degree on the wall and wonder what I was thinking. What am I going to do with that? If I could walk away from teaching right now, I would. But I am not as desperate to do so. The reality, despite low pay, bad insurance, and frustrating conditions…it is a job. I am not dependent upon a government handout. That’s a good thing b/c we just barely make too much for that. The craziness I see is that those hurting the most have no help…especially when the economy is in the toilet like it is now. There are no incentives or booster programs for those in the middle. Business owners have incentives for hiring. Lower incomes have assistance with groceries, rent, child care, health care. Those in the middle have to somehow manage to make ends meet. I know people who can’t afford health insurance, and don’t qualify for assistance. They are one tragedy away…from what? Bankruptcy? Death? Ruin? I don’t know. They are just a step above the assistance line. What do you do? Do you give up and sink below the line? Do you keep going and hope that things get better? What choices do you have? The frustration and stress weigh heavily and it is heart wrenching. I have a family member who just couldn’t comprehend how someone could make it on $4000/month. Yeah, that’s $48000/year. Got news, people make it on less. Even if they make $48000/year they are not bringing home that much. She needed to take her $4000/month allowance and make it work…no sympathy.
Just a step above…not exactly the most exciting view.
Nepotism…not a fan
I am a class sponsor and had to choose students to represent their class in student government. There were a LOT of really great applicants. Six students have parents who teach at the school. Now, I play as fair as possible and I’m not willing to choose someone just b/c of who their momma is. Little did I know that the maturity level of certain colleagues is not the same. Wow.
Students completed applications. More than 70 applications went out. Forty-nine applications were returned. One interview was completed a day early and three more students didn’t show for their interviews. I only wanted to accept 15, but increased that number to 20. Only one student with a school parental was accepted. I almost didn’t accept that student b/c of the parent connection but felt that was just as unfair as accepting the student b/c of the parent connection. One teacher made the statement that it was a courtesy. Um…no. I responded that I did not realize that was the way things worked here and had I known that I would have NEVER accepted the responsibility since that is not how I work. This tuned changed as another parent made serious waves. Emails were exchanged. Nothing too major, but the tone was tense. I stopped responding and turned it over to administration who gave me their 100% support.
I would hate to know that my children received ANYTHING that they did not deserve. They know that they are responsible for themselves and I will not step in to get them things they don’t deserve. I will support them and speak for them if they need assistance, but I will NEVER demand that they receive something that they did not earn.
When you do that, what are you teaching your kids?
Waking up is hard to do…
As the new school year accelerates I am holding on and riding the chaos. Above all, waking up is hard to do. 5AM comes early. Both girls are experiencing transition years. The oldest a freshman and the youngest entering 6th grade, they are adjusting well. I’m impressed by their start. They have hit the ground running and both are staying on top of things. It’s only day 3, but feels like so much more. Projects, homework and planning are the topics of the day around our house. It’s craziness, but we are happy. Kinda works out.
Security cuts, worried parents, and a hard time for teachers
Security cuts leaves parents worried | WCNC.com .
7th Grader “It does concern me because the way children are going these days and the way things are happening, they need that enforcement,”
Another middle schooler “We just like to go wild and do things, so I just hope when there is fewer, I just hope they can manage us children.”
What telling quotes. Read it again for the full impact. What does that say about today’s youth? Parenting? What about managing yourself, acting right and getting your education? Where’s THAT mentality?
Students shouldn’t be afraid to go to school! Teachers and police officers shouldn’t have to spend their time controlling children who do not have a clue how to behave. It is NOT our JOB to PARENT kids that we did not BIRTH. It is our job to offer an education that will help them be successful in life. Do you have any idea how difficult it is to be parent, counselor, officer and educator? Freakin’ ridiculous that we even have to.
Parental support along with administrative support will do wonders for a successful school year and academic growth. When the hands of administration are tied, things get real difficult in the classroom.
Game changers
I went to school to set up my classroom yesterday and was surprised at the number of people doing the same. New teachers had orientation and I ran into the newbie who will teach sociology this year. I was asked about my approach last year and responded that I got through it and did what I wanted to with regard to approach.
Last year, I didn’t have to worry about a state or district made final. I was able to teach the course of study AND have fun with it. We learned the basics, but I focused on cultural influence and decision making. As a class we frequently discussed the driving forces behind our choices, viewpoints, and personal stance on issues. We studied world cultures and compared traditions, way of life, and evaluated from our personal perspectives while questioning the acceptance of the traditions in our own society. We reviewed advertising and its influence on our lives, as well as the steady changes in advertising and media. We had a great time and many students commented on how they received benefit from the class. There were several who asked about possible careers related to sociology. They learned and were genuinely interested. I was able to conduct the class in such a way that students were engaged and had a say in the learning process. We were not driven by test review. Many of my students went on the psychology and were not happy with the class. Yes it was a different teacher, but that teacher also had to focus on the fact that there was a district assessment at the end.
Had I had to issue a district assessment at the end of my sociology class I would have taught the class differently. I know that some believe it shouldn’t matter, but if you step into the classroom you will see just how much it does. Knowing that you will be held accountable for specifics, and not broad goals, changes your approach. My students could have written a wonderful essay about sociological perspectives, but would have bombed a multiple choice test on sociological specifics.
Think of it this way…
I have a master’s in American History. I can adequately discuss any time period of US history, but if you get into specific recall of what battle where and the date for this and that, I’m going to stumble. I can tell you cause, effect, build up and influence, but I am very weak in the minor details.
Maybe I’m doing a poor job of explaining the difference. I know that my students knew nothing about sociology at the beginning of the class and were inspired to seek more knowledge at the end. Had I had to stick to strict textbook learning they would have gotten through the class, filed the content in short term memory, and moved on. We did the book route, but it was not our focus. With a high stakes district assessment at the end, it would have had to be…there wouldn’t have been time for research and discussion.
High stakes testing is a game changer. A teacher (or student) is not considered successful if the student can’t accurately answer 100 multiple choice questions about the subject. No doubt, there are things students MUST know about a subject, but their learning should not be based upon a response to 100 multiple choice questions designed to test their reasoning and test taking ability. On a multiple choice test students are not able to demonstrate what they DID learn. They are not allowed to demonstrate their understanding of a topic. They are demonstrating their test taking maturity. if questioned on their knowledge, and given reasonable alternatives, most individuals will second guess what they know they know. With confidence and maturity they will choose the correct response. Many students lack this confidence and most lack the testing maturity required to land on the correct response. They will fall for the distractors because distractors are designed as reasonable alternatives to the accurate response. Test taking requires a maturity that some students do not yet possess.
I don’t know the best alternative for determining teacher effectiveness. Oral response? Knowledge defense with an assessment panel? I do know that good teachers are limited by the current assessment requirements and bad teaching is encouraged by it.
Agonizing over a course of study…
This semester I will be teaching Bible History and two other courses. The two other courses are planned and I am confident in my ability to instruct and guide students toward success. Although I am excited over teaching Bible History, I am apprehensive. I feel terribly unqualified. My knowledge is limited, and I am going to have to work to make it an enriching course for my students. I’m trying to decide on my approach, and I think I have decided to be honest with them. The course is not supposed to be a dumping ground and it has been a very popular course in the past. I believe it will be best to let them know that I am learning right along with them. I have knowledge of civilizations, but my biblical knowledge is weak. I will be a facilitator for the class. I will be reading and writing, right along with them. Maybe it will be successful, maybe not. Either way I will learn more about myself and more about the Bible.






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